blame yourself, because you should have known better when you checked your mail, and you read that letter your luck ran out, your pride succumbed to the sugar coating of that letterbomb words that touch, and make you bleed suffocate, embraced by greed poor translations, far from home innocence makes the world go round Nigerian prince can I help you in some way I got the money now I'll send it far away he stripped you dry, down to your socks with empty promises of rocks you sought fortune, and you took the chance now you send your savings to him in advance Nigerian prince can I help you in some way I got the money now I'll send it far away

I know this isn't real I can't believe my eyes but this is how I feel fallen angel thrown away its grace a child of darkness swallowed by the moon's embrace creeping shadows in the flickering light twinkle twinkle through this endless night and in my room I've put up all these walls I focus on the problems I never had at all and over here I wish I'd disappear from the world outside just leave it all behind and all my fear and all these missing tears that hide inside they'll just erase my mind I know the truth that is concealed a cloud upon a clear red sky the doors that hide the deal artificial monster that awakens from its cryostasis leaving nothing in its wake it torments only my disgraces and over here I wish I'd disappear from the world outside just leave it all behind and all my fear and all these missing tears that hide inside they'll just erase my mind

still water depression in a pond of possibilities stale grown relations and stagnant mobility a novel expression a blossoming burrough the hope of a warm breeze and the spring of tomorrow an obscured reflection of my self imposed projections an unhealthy obsession with a lunar possession sometimes when I'm feeling low I drift along the undertow flowing further down the stream I indulge in my fruitless dreams still water depression on the verge of drying out salted words, sweetened tears without reason, beyond doubt linear regression pretty clear but quite unknown instant gratification living free inside your phone an obscured reflection of my self imposed projections an unhealthy obsession with a lunar possession sometimes when I'm feeling low I drift along the undertow flowing further down the stream I indulge in my fruitless dreams still water depression in a pond of possibilities stale grown relations and stagnant mobility a novel expression a blossoming burrough the hope of a warm breeze and the spring of tomorrow sometimes when I'm feeling low I drift along the undertow flowing further down the stream I indulge in my fruitless dreams

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she's got problems of her own she doesn't want to share her sky is empty, there's no sun although her chest lies bare she's got no way of knowing the origin of her pain now her eyes are no longer glowing and her soul has been left stained she's not the only one she's acting on her heart's desires while living just for fun she's worried that her heart's caught fire she holds her breath and waits she hopes that someone comes to save her someone that relates someone that can be her savior focused on her own true feelings she doesn't feel regret while loneliness can be appealing she won't ever forget the thoughts that once consumed her mind the fear of being left behind the darkness growing deep inside her and the truth that she must find she's not the only one she's acting on her heart's desires while living just for fun she's worried that her heart's caught fire she holds her breath and waits she hopes that someone comes to save her someone that relates someone she can call her savior the night she reached out to the stars the dream that used to seem so far the steps she used to thread with ease the moment of divine release she's not the only one she's acting on her heart's desires while living just for fun she's worried that her heart's caught fire she holds her breath and waits she hopes that someone comes to save her someone that relates someone she can call her savior

the sunken ship, beneath the surface a relic of what used to be ensnared within this great solution a fragile droplet in the sea the sun king's ship lies still before us its luster gone, washed out in time this shadow hiding in the moonlight the gleaming hope that once was mine do you feel blue, like we used to and do you expect that something will change without action you preach of rebellion, yet savour the peace while your body is ailing, you spread the disease you slander your purpose, you sacrifice friends still you try to go back on your words over and over again the moonlit goddess has abandoned the sky she has left all she knew, and is wondering why all the birds have stopped singing, the trees dropped their leaves why sun doesn't rise at the dawn of the eve now the castle is empty, these dogs have no home could you give us some shelter, could you spare us some bones in this world where the people are ruled by the blind could you give us some faith, could you spare us some eyes do you think we could be free from this strange melancholy do you think something might change if I reach out and grab you oh, how we tremble, afraid of the fear or the warmth in my stomach whenever you're near do you think we should change, do you think that we could or has the sun king's ship now departed for good

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I don't want to be just a piece among the rest struggling for tomorrow, when I have no interest I don't want to solve this puzzle, it will only bring me pain I wish I could have a vacuum in the space where there's a brain I don't want to be another sun among the stars but am I still allowed to dream, if I have no dreams at all if I go to sleep tomorrow, will I wake up yesterday if I follow all the signs, can I still be led astray do you feel meaning in life you've been silently screaming, I know now the twilight of evening is here and the day has left you feeling so low I don't want to be just a piece among the rest but am I able to succeed without passing any tests I don't want to spend my time washing off these bloody stains living in an age where half the world has gone insane I don't want to be another sun among the stars asking for forgiveness once the joke has gone too far passing out from work by the middle of the day and then passing out again at home, I dream myself away do you feel meaning in life you've been silently screaming, I know now the twilight of evening is here and the day has left you feeling so low

there's a killer on the loose out on the streets socializing with the misfits and freaks there's a killer on the loose a drifter in the night a terrifying presence hidden in plain sight there's a killer on the loose and his coming to your house lock all the doors and turn off the lights hide inside the closet suppress your breath when he comes into your room the smell of death

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so this is hell? it's like a pineapple gone bad I thought it'd be a scary place but now it only makes me sad at the shore of the distant morning within grasp of the fleeting light lucid dreams while the planet's warming toxic fumes draw the shape of night metal birds on a sky that's burning breathing out as they leave in flight it's the one eyed man returning hidden deep and out of sight from the sea where the tide is turning tumbling down as you reach the top lessons learned but soon forgotten go to sleep without waking up

swarming over the fields eating with no relief starve your family I'm the locust cattle left to die leaving none alive paint a blood red sky I'm the locust spread your pesticide run run run and hide you can't hide from me I'm the locust I'm the locust no one wants to play no one dares to stay they've all fled away from my plague heading for the sea just like marching trees killing viciously I'm the locust suffocating you have your skin turn blue nothing you can do I'm the locust don't need no one else to repent my ways I feel no regret I'm the locust I'm the locust I'm the locust I'm the locust

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oh Alice, do you wanna know how I feel I want to tell you how this moment is real 'cause I remember all the clothes that you wore you might dislike it but I just can't ignore but it's not like it seems does anybody really know what all of this means I try to turn but I am stuck in reverse oh, how I wish I could just be someone else someone who's not afraid to live by themselves someone who gives you all the warmth you deserve someone who loves you, from spring until fall I want to be the one who touches your heart I wish I could just take your troubles apart if I could be the one to reach out to you and all the criminals who roam around free I'm staying silent so they don't bully me cause greed, corruption is just making me blind I have the image of you trapped in my mind I'd like to wake up someday take my bags, and just move away I wonder if there's any hope left for me

in the year following the rabbit I continued on my quest to drop out of old habits stop preaching for the deaf to get a real prescription to finally make a sound get rid of my addiction get my feet back on the ground I could use some medication to clear the fungus in my head and I'll risk mental castration if it means leaving my bed in the days of sanitation with a water that tastes dead I have been through hibernation I think I'll stay awake instead